Online Dating

If you were lucky to find a special person to share your life without using online dating, I am so jealous.

I have been told that online dating is my best chance at finding a guy. I am hoping that is not the case. If I that is true, here are my conclusions:
-I have not received a match from eharmony in almost 2 months. I even changed my criteria to the whole US. Does that mean that there is no one who is compatible with me in the entire US? I am hoping that is not true!
-Most guys I talk to online think that pre-marital sex is just fine has long as you aren't sleeping around.
-Guys are eager to meet after 30 minutes of chatting and then not so eager after I suggest a little more time. I wonder what they really want from online dating.
-Only good Christian dating site requires a 6 month commitment.
-Multiple people tell me that in Lancaster, good Christian guys get married by the age of 25. Does that mean that I start dating 23 year olds or move to a place where they don't get married young?

I think I am done with online dating. There is a small chance that I will join Equally Yoked. I just need to stop listening to my non-Christian friends that tell me that I need to lower my standards if I expect to find a man. Start trusting that my God has a plan for me that is better than anything I could dream of! He is has never failed me in any other area of my life. Why do I have such a hard time believing that God has a plan for my love life?

Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you" this is the Lord's declaration "plans for your welfare, not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope,"

Epic Fail

I started May with some things that I was working on.
-exercising 3-5 times a week
-eating under my 1,600 calorie limit
-reading in the Word everyday
-finishing the Real Marriage book
-losing 5 pounds
-eat out 0-5 times

Well I failed in all these categories. I did get better in a couple of these!
-Only lost 1 pound in May
-Read 2 chapters in Real Marriage (will I ever finish this book?)
-Was way better at counting my calories but it is hard to do sometimes with my work schedule.

June is a new month! I am going to be joining a friend's biggest loser competition this week. About mid-June, I am going to try the Paleo diet for 30 days and then decide if I want to continue that. The paleo diet means that I will not be eating grains, dairy, or anything processed. It is going to be tough but it is a healthy way to get back on track! I am going to a Harvest small group for the first time! I am super pumped about that. Funny how much you miss small group when you don't have the ability to go.

I still have alot of the same goals for the month of June.
-exercise 3-5 a week
-lose 5-10 pounds
-finish the Real Marriage book
-Get in the Word everyday!
-Eating out only 0-5 times this month

BTW, I know I promised I would give a monthly update of how my size 10 jeans fit. I am afraid that it will get stuck on my leg and never get it off. Hopefully there will be an update next month. In case you you were wondering, I am currently a size 14 or 16 in jeans. I am hoping that the size 10 jeans will fit in Dec!!

Here is amazing June!!

May Starts with New Goals

I am going to use May to refocus! I have been so lazy with so many things in my life. Neglecting eating healthy, not reading in the Word, neglecting working out, eating out alot, watching too much TV, spending too much time on Facebook, etc. I have hit a place where I realize that I need to make some changes. I gained back all the weight I lost a few years ago. Starting struggling with some stuff again. Spending money and not paying off debt as fast I as I need to. I am setting some goals for myself for the month of May. Most of these will continue until the end of the year. Please feel free to keep me accountable or just come back here once a month to see how things are going.

Goals for May
-lose 5 pounds
-Count calories and eat more natural food (join www.myfitnesspal.com and join me in this)
-Read in the Bible once a day
-No TV on the days I work 13 hours and only 2-3 hours on my days off or weekends
-No more eating out unless it is a necessity (hoping that means 1-4 times in May)
-Pray more especially for my friends (feel free to send me prayer requests by Facebook, text, or email)
-Read more books (I need to finish Real Marriage and then start one of the many books I have bought over the last year)

Goals for 2012
-Pay off my car by the end of the year
-Lose 40-55 pounds by the end of the year (starting weight is 203)
-Fit into size 10 jeans (There will be monthly updates on how that is going. Currently I am a size 14)
-Run a half marathon in Sept

Please pray for strength and determination as I start my plan tomorrow. Thanks for reading!

Life is Rough

This last month has been kind of rough for me. I don't even know what sparked it. I dealt with rejection after having a great date with a guy. Proof that guys have no idea what they want no matter what age they are. Some issues at work that I seem to be in the middle of and wish we could all just get along. Dealing with struggles that I thought were in my past. Realizing that I love my church but I have no Christian community or accountability. Gained about 5-10 pounds. Back to the weight I was before I lost almost 40 pounds.

Every time I start to make some process something else comes down on me. I am feeling very defeated and alone right now.

Sorry for the depressing post but I really just need a lot of prayer right now.