May Starts with New Goals

I am going to use May to refocus! I have been so lazy with so many things in my life. Neglecting eating healthy, not reading in the Word, neglecting working out, eating out alot, watching too much TV, spending too much time on Facebook, etc. I have hit a place where I realize that I need to make some changes. I gained back all the weight I lost a few years ago. Starting struggling with some stuff again. Spending money and not paying off debt as fast I as I need to. I am setting some goals for myself for the month of May. Most of these will continue until the end of the year. Please feel free to keep me accountable or just come back here once a month to see how things are going.

Goals for May
-lose 5 pounds
-Count calories and eat more natural food (join www.myfitnesspal.com and join me in this)
-Read in the Bible once a day
-No TV on the days I work 13 hours and only 2-3 hours on my days off or weekends
-No more eating out unless it is a necessity (hoping that means 1-4 times in May)
-Pray more especially for my friends (feel free to send me prayer requests by Facebook, text, or email)
-Read more books (I need to finish Real Marriage and then start one of the many books I have bought over the last year)

Goals for 2012
-Pay off my car by the end of the year
-Lose 40-55 pounds by the end of the year (starting weight is 203)
-Fit into size 10 jeans (There will be monthly updates on how that is going. Currently I am a size 14)
-Run a half marathon in Sept

Please pray for strength and determination as I start my plan tomorrow. Thanks for reading!

Life is Rough

This last month has been kind of rough for me. I don't even know what sparked it. I dealt with rejection after having a great date with a guy. Proof that guys have no idea what they want no matter what age they are. Some issues at work that I seem to be in the middle of and wish we could all just get along. Dealing with struggles that I thought were in my past. Realizing that I love my church but I have no Christian community or accountability. Gained about 5-10 pounds. Back to the weight I was before I lost almost 40 pounds.

Every time I start to make some process something else comes down on me. I am feeling very defeated and alone right now.

Sorry for the depressing post but I really just need a lot of prayer right now.