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I got back from my NJ trip on Wed night. Here is what happened:

Visit to the Zoo

Dinner with my dad

Early Tues morning for my interview in PA

Dinner with my mom

Got to see my nephew Zach

Super early morning for the second half of my interview in PA

Fly back to Chicago

I seemed to always be moving and getting up super early on this trip. Didn't feel like much of a vacation. I wish I could take a vacation and just sit on the beach!

On to my interview, it is for the Admin team of a dentist office in Lancaster, PA. It is an impressive place. I would be rotating through call center (making appointments and answering questions), billing, checking in patients, and checking out patients. My schedule would be a little crazy with night and Sat hours. I think I would really like this job. There would be loads to learn but would be fast paced and challenging me all the time. I could see myself staying at this job for awhile. It was a four part interview that they fit into 2 days so I would not need to make a special trip. I am super grateful that I was able to get it all in on this trip. It just meant a lot of driving. I drove 10 hours in 2 days just in regards to the interview. But seeing beautiful PA makes the time go by pretty quick. Also the weather was amazing (Sunny and 80!). It was hard getting off the plane in Chicago in 50 degree weather. Oh Spring will you ever come to Chicago? So now I am waiting to hear back from them. Not sure what their time line is for deciding. After the last job, I hope it is sooner than 2 months. The only downside to this job would be the distance from the Harvest church plant in West Philly. But I am still hoping that I could still manage to be apart of with this job. If I get this job, I would need to find temp housing within 30 minutes of Lancaster. Planning on staying with people for free or small amount of money for 1-2 months. Then I should be able to find housing. There could be a possibility of living alone!! Depending on what is available when I move. This seems like a great location and good job. Now I just need them to say You are Hired!!! Keep praying and thanks for all your prayers.

Side note for all my Chicago friends: Gas in NJ was 3.71 and PA was 3.89. Another reason for me to move to PA!!

Wow God!

I usually leave more time in between posts but I had to write about what happened this morning.

I am going to NJ next week to see my mom. I had wanted at least one interview while I was there. This morning God opened the door wide. I scheduled 2 interviews for next week and maybe a third. This is just Tuesday! So pumped at how God worked it all out. Who knows maybe God will blow me away again tomorrow!

1st Interview is Monday at 1:30pm
2nd Interview is Tuesday at 9am

Keep Praying!! Thanks for being such supportive friends!

Learning Process

In case you didn't know, I did not get the job that I was been waiting to hear from for 2 months. So the search continues. I have felt many emotions this week.
My first reaction was determination. I spent hours applying for every job I could find. Praying that God would bless one of them! So positive that my move would still happen soon. Believing that God is the only one that can make anything happen. Trust and wait for him.
Then I felt confusion. Confused about whether it was a good idea to move to PA. Questioned all of my motivations. Still didn't feel like I should be staying in Chicago. Just confused what I should be doing and what the next step would be.
Then feeling discouraged. Feeling like no matter what I do nothing will ever change. I will be stuck in the same place forever. Maybe I should just give up on my desire to move to PA. Give up on all my reasons for moving.
Then I got in a crazy place of wanting to step out in faith. I wanted to apply for a job at the camp I grew up at. It was a great job which would have been exactly what I wanted and give me some amazing skills to find a job after the internship would end. Big problem was money. If I had not made some bad money choices years ago, the pay would have been fine. But no way for me to pay the bills I have now. Kind of felt like I was being reminded and punished for my bad decisions.
Then I found a cheap flight to NJ. Tossed the idea of going to see my mom during her spring break. Concerns  were having no interviews, spending money I am saving for a move, and using vacation days I was saving for job interviews. Maybe in a moment of insanity or maybe amazing trust, I bought a plane ticket for April 25-27. Now I am praying hard that I will not only get to see my mom but that I would get 1-3 interviews. I know I might sound crazy but I know that God can do it! Waiting on Him!
Right now, I am unsure how I feel. All I know is that I started crying in church today when I realized how big my God is and how much I had questioned and doubted Him this week. I still believe that God wants me to move to PA. It is hard for me to understand why God is not allowing it at this time. I want to move tomorrow. I am not scared to move (not a normal reaction for me) but I am scared to stay and continue to run from my family.
For all the people who think that I am crazy, I have a long list of reasons why I know that this is the right thing to do. If you are one of those people who keep telling me that I should stay, please know that it is important for me to have the support of my friends. I am not moving to run away from anything or I think PA offers a better life. It is the next step in healing my ties with my family. Something I have only been willing to do for about 6 months. Please encourage me and pray for me even if you don't understand it.