As you may know I had a job interview on Feb 14th. People keep asking how it went or if I got the job. I will set the record straight. I am still waiting to hear about the job. Some have told me to give up and move on. Others told that it is unlikely but wait for an answer. Others told me that this process can take awhile. I will say this that whatever happens with this job, God has taught me alot through this time. Don't get me wrong I really want this job for many reasons! But I stink at waiting for anything. I know how to deal with disappointment or excitement but not knowing what is ahead is hard for me to handle. I tend to give up and mess it all up all myself. This time I want to make sure that everything is in God's timing and on His terms. Easier said than done especially when it involves something that you really want. Over the last month and half, I realize how much I want to move to PA. Maybe it is this job or not, God will move me to PA. I have gotten some clarity on my motivations for moving. I am coming to grips why some of those reasons are legitimate even if I think I don't deserve them. The biggest way that Satan has tried to get me to doubt is by telling me that I don't deserve to have what I desire. There are times that I have really thought that was true. But God continually keeps showing me in His Word, through books, and through people that it is by God's grace that I can have what I desire. It has nothing to do with my past or anything that I have done. God loves me and WANTS to bless me! That is the biggest reason that I have not given up hope on hearing about this job. God has the ability to get me the job at Sila Heating and Air Conditioning as a Sales Assistant. That takes no effort on his part. He could have given me an answer about the job over a month ago. But God wants to teach me so much though waiting. I still don't have an answer but I pray everyday that I will get the call that day that I got the job!
Recently reading someone's blog, he had to ask himself if he really woke up everyday and really believed that he would be healed that day. It got me to thinking if I really believed that today would be the day that I got the job. This week, I am praying every morning that I would get the call that day and wait expectantly for God to work. I would ask that you would join me in this prayer. Please pray everyday this week that I would get the job that day! I would also encourage you to pray that way for something that you are waiting for. I would love to pray for you every day this week too. Let me know what you are waiting on God for!
Off the topic of my move, I have started running again and watching what I eat. Not sure if I have a goal right now. Mainly just trying to fit better in the clothes that I already have. I gained about 10-15 lbs over the last 6 months. I was letting my emotions get the best of me and I became very lazy. So now I am trying to exercise 4-5 times a week. I thought that I would be running 2 miles for awhile just trying to get some stamina back. I am proud to say that I completed a 5 mile run yesterday in 35 degree weather. Not sure how running makes me feel closer to God but it does. It is time that I can spend listening to Christian music and lay my burdens before him (I need to be distracted to run)! This is one more thing that helps make waiting easier.
I have posted all this to give you some encouragement with whatever you are waiting for no matter how impossible it seems. The question you have to ask yourself is Has waiting grown my faith or has it made me doubt who God is? I have had some ups and downs dealing with this move. It is always easier to handle when I put it all in God's hands and wait expectantly for Him to work. This is not the only thing I am waiting for right now. It is what I feel I wanted to share with all of you. Please let me know if there is anything specific I can pray about this week!
